Not Defined By Today

I am a mess today.

I’ve got baby food and baby throw up on my shirt. I’m wearing no makeup, though it wouldn’t matter if I was with the amount of sweat on my face. As such, the dark circles under my eyes are completely visible. My hair needs to be washed, or at least brushed. I’ve had a dull, barely noticeable headache since this morning. My temper is short. I’m exhausted. I’ve been counting down the hours until the day is done. 

Honestly, I’d take a picture as proof, but I’m not good with selfies (if you can believe it).

I’m sure you know these kinds of days. The kinds when the baby wakes up too early in the morning and hardly naps. The kind where the toddler doesn’t take a nap. The kind where you try so hard to give the kids a fun time but it feels like it only backfires. The kind where you think you’d be content with serving Oreos for dinner because you know the kids wouldn’t complain about it. 

Today was tiring and I tried to keep my cool as much as possible. But it took so little to set me off today. I lost it more times than I’d like to admit and I honestly feel ashamed for the way that I acted. 

But it’s on days like this, days when I feel overworked, underappreciated, and emotionally spent, that I am happy to know that I am still a child of God

My messy hair and clothes don’t define me. 

My moments of stress don’t define me. 

Today doesn’t define me. 

I am defined by Christ. It is His love and grace that gets me through not only the day but this life in general. It’s a sweet reminder that no matter how much I mess up, He is still faithful and good to me. 

“I mean that you have been saved by grace through believing. You did not save yourselves; it was a gift from God. It was not the result of your own efforts, so you cannot brag about it. God has made us what we are. In Christ Jesus, God made us to do good works, which God planned in advance for us to live our lives doing.”

‭‭Ephesians‬ ‭2:8-10‬ ‭NCV‬‬

Now, I think I need a shower

5 thoughts on “Not Defined By Today

  1. It’s hard to believe, but in several short years, you’ll miss this stage of life. When I was exactly where you are, I heard a grandma say that these days (your stage) are the best days of our lives. I did a double-take…then the Lord allowed my thoughts to fast-forward 20 years and I got it…and my motherhood journey was forever changed. Every day I do motherhood is the best day of my life.
    I’m now 12 years into those 20; I have enjoyed every stage, but a part of me wouldn’t mind a rewind :-).


    1. Thank you for this. I try hard to remember that these days with little ones are fleeting, but it’s even harder to embrace the bad days! I know I’ll miss it one day, though, so I hugged my boys a little harder that night. 🙂


  2. There are some stages of our life which we miss a lot in our future time. One is childhood life and second is motherhood life. God wants us to do only good works. So true that he has planned all the things already.

    May God bless you.

    ~Dr. Diana


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